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eyeheartmuzack
31 December 2007 @ 02:22 am

It's a relief to finally realize I've been lied to all this time
Thinking I'm the only one who treads these trails
And who has climbed these mountians
When they too have over come such odds
And I'm not the only one still looking for that perfect friend
When really they've been there all along
It will be so hard to leave them behind
To face my demons on my own once again
I enjoy this happy place more than they know

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Who really wants to grow up anymore?
Sounds like fun and games
Before the shoe fits and the storm persists
And all we want is to be a kid again

Who wants to believe in truth
When it is much easier to go with the flow
Pretend there is no end
This isn't a fairytale
This is reality
Don't be fooled
Don't get lied to
Search and you shall find
The answer is out there


It scares me to think you or I could be Left Behind

 
 
eyeheartmuzack
21 December 2007 @ 05:26 pm

lets pretend were not needy
lets pretend our hearts still beat
lets pretend we fall in love tonight
clumsy enough to fall for anything

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we'll stumble on our words
we'll spill our guts on creaking bar stools
below the neon blue

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just pretend that you're in love
that scolding sun is bound to come up eventually

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who am i if im alone?
i hardly exist at all.

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lets pretend that we dont need anything anymore from anyone.
i dont want to feel anything anymore lets just pretend
we'll live happily ever after

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eyeheartmuzack
20 December 2007 @ 04:08 pm
He only sings when he's sad
and he's sad all the time
so he sings the whole night through
yeah he sings in the daytime too

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He only dreams when he's sad
and he's sad all the time
so he dreams the whole night through
yeah he dreams in the daytime too

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He only laughs when he's sad
and he's sad all the time
so he laughs the whole night through
yeah he laughs in the daytime too
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
09 December 2007 @ 11:00 pm
I can walk
Away
Just as fast
as I came
And you won't know
Unitl I'm gone
That you lost
everything
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These feet
Were made for
Traveling
Down these road
Keep up if you dare
Waitin on you just isn't fair
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
08 December 2007 @ 03:57 pm
We'll take your money, spend it on our family
Buy a new house and fancy cars, to hell with you and yours
We don't care anymore, and the truth is we never really cared before
We'll take your home, and steal your pride
Disown your name, and call it suicide
Wish you the best of luck in your endeavors
Hope you make it through this cold December

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Strip me til I'm skin and bones
Leave me lost and alone
Tell me everythings alright
As you walk clean out of sight
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
Always on the road
driving to a place they call home
but I'm not going anywhere
driving round in circles

These roots creep deeper than you can see
Tie down this crippled trunk
to something so much greater
than you'll ever be aware

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In time will all this make sense
little soldier girl
too tough to shed a tear
pack your things it's time to leave
always on the road

Don't get too close
Never know when I'll have to get up and go
So don't bother getting to know me
I'll be gone before the sun rises
and you'll want nothing to do
with a traveling soul
always on the road
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
12 November 2007 @ 11:26 am
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I think they're gonna make you start over
you don't want to start over
put your backpack on your shoulder
be the good little soldier
it's no different when your older
you're predisposed
that's all for questions now
the case is closed!

 
 
eyeheartmuzack
09 November 2007 @ 09:48 am
Call it love, Call it hate
Call it blood, Call it fate
Call it what you want, It's all the same
Call it home, Call it family
Call it friends, Call it anything
It doesn't matter what you call it
It's all the same, just a game

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You'll never known until you try
You've never loved until you cry
You've never hated until you say I never needed you anyway
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
Missed the last train home
birds pass by to tell me
that im not alone
well im pushing myself
to finish this part
i can handle a lot
but one thing i'm missing is in your eyes

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have you seen this film
it reminds me of walking down the avenue
well im washing my hands of attachments,
yeah i will land on the ground
but one thing I'm missing is in your eyes
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
02 November 2007 @ 03:14 pm
These words come out of my mouth.
Yet, no one understands what I say.
They can hear, but cannot comprehend.
I speak English, but in a different language.
My actions are not like theirs.
I do not live on empty promises.
I love with all my heart, and sometimes too hard.
Life has taught me much of what I know, maybe too much.
Through experience, I have evolved into the person I am today:
An isolated creature looking at the world from an outsider’s perspective.

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he lost his job again. they're moving back to stl. once again, i've become homeless. worst of all i dont have a single soul to talk to about all this bullshit.
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
30 October 2007 @ 01:33 pm
Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.
And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.
You fasten my seatbelt because it is the law.
In your two ton death trap I finally saw.
A piece of love in your face that bathed me in regret.
Then you drove me to places I'll never forget

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I should tell you that you were my first love.
I have come to learn I'll only see you interrupting my dreams at night
And it's alright. And it's alright. And it's alright.
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
25 October 2007 @ 12:14 pm
"Exile"
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_Eva Hoffman_

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eyeheartmuzack
21 October 2007 @ 02:11 am
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eyeheartmuzack
18 October 2007 @ 10:45 pm
"And after all this time
he is right there in front of you
you start to drink
much quicker than before
you dont want to remember
force it down to the last drop
you still remember and now youre sick
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he finds his way
to the same porch youre sitting on
he asks 'are you alright'
all you say is 'yeah
just drank too much'
and nothing more
oh the things you had rehearsed
over and over again
and you choke
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like why?
are you really happy?
do you know
I miss having you as a friend
someone i once greatly enjoyed talking to
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I saw you looking
I was looking too
I'd call just to say hello
if i only knew your number"(Michelle 10).
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
15 October 2007 @ 01:54 pm
the point when one realizes he or she is too passive.
the moment in time when one must decide to be more aggressive.
not allow others to take advantage.
keep from being the constant push over.

then it is realized.
this is alienation.

all this time spent trying to make others happy.
they have all misunderstood the mission.
a door mat instead of a best friend.

after numerous let downs.
trust is too far out of reach.
hope is just an illusion.
the little bit of optimisim inside.
keeps the wheels spinning.
maybe the future won't be so bad.
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
10 October 2007 @ 09:56 am
October
The leaves on the trees
Change colors
Yet again
But I'm in a foriegn world
Contstantly emigrating
From town to town
The quintessential exile figure
Of my own story
With a different language than those around me,
How can I communicate?
With my own appearance,
I'm an obvious outsider

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The cold is returning
Always making me feel alone
I need to be wrapped up
In a blanket, with a cup of coco
In front of a fire place
To feel warm again
Until then I shall wander this land in solitude

"We live, as we dream - alone." -Conrad-
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
10 September 2007 @ 09:42 pm
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This place is a prison
These people aren't my friends
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
03 September 2007 @ 04:39 pm

You didn't say the words I would have said
You couldn't help the doubt that filled your head
It's just an ordinary try
We learn to live we live to die
Just accept and don't ask why
My lips they form a crooked smile
Giving a sign of no reply
And when you wake up freezing in a room dark and empty
Well, just keep singing along
I'm not what you write in your books you know I'm nothing like a song
And will you answer me I already know
I asked you to answer but I already know
And can you come back home you already know
You don't ask because you already know
It's an unfamiliar song
You said you'd like to sing along
But you couldn't change the key
I can't sing it doesn't suit me
When I wake up freezing but know half believing
It was this I feared
Because it's not just the words that you whispered in my ear
And will you answer me I already know
I asked you to answer but I already know
And can you come back home you already know
You don't ask because you already know
Will you come back home

 
 
eyeheartmuzack
30 August 2007 @ 01:05 am
Sound and Silence Organized In Time

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Stay out of trouble
Stay in touch
Try not
To think about
Me so much
 
 
eyeheartmuzack
22 August 2007 @ 01:41 pm
Looking back
the start of this all
Things were so
different then
So much has happened
I never thought
I'd get this far
so fast
Spend all of our days
wishing for tomorrow
Forgetting to appreciate
Today
Never stop to
smell the roses
Notice the positives
Anticipating each weekend
As if something
great was approaching
But then that passes too
Fast forward, repeat
It all starts over
Now we're counting down the days till summer
Counting down our life till we die
We all know it goes by so quickly
yet we do nothing to slow it down
to savor its sweet taste
Bitter moments may arise
but that is just the spice of life
Take a minute
a second
To enjoy this time
we still have together

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